Everyday Tarot, 05/06/11: Strength through Feelings & Queen of Cups

mystic-dreamer-tarot-card-queen-cups“You’re emotions are not a weakness. They are your strength,” my husband says to me, in midst of a particularly messy meltdown. On top of the issue (which I no longer remember), I was supremely upset with myself for not having control over those emotions! My Saturn (limits) is hooked up with Pisces (feelings), so I work (Saturn) very hard on maintaining control (Saturn). Um…it’s an ongoing project.

I took a lot of comfort, because I find it true. I also heard myself telling a client the same recently over “losing it.” Feelings are indeed a strength I wouldn’t want to be without, despite the cost sometimes of having so damn many of them.

Today’s Tarot is the Queen of Cups, associated with Water in Water. This is an emotional gal! Like all queens, her focus is often felt inwardly, or perhaps within her inner circle, in a very yin fashion. You’ll see her  during periods of heavy emotional processing, actively building intuitive skills, or even starting therapy. Matters of emotional import speak most clearly to her. Dreaminess and ethereal knowing are her domain.

Much like working with muscles builds strength, working with feelings builds insight. If you are hearty enough to weather the turbulence, you can get past the impact t0 see more clearly, deeper and better than you could ever hope to not allowing direct access to your heart.

The Queen of Cups knows it’s through emotion we connect by opening up the channel. It’s through feeling anther’s pain, or joy, or fear, or wonder that we broaden our own world. She would have us let those feelings wash in, allow and sit with them, seeing exquisite beauty and exquisite pain as all part of the very same force. Without them, life is flat and dull. With them, yes, we can feel discomfort, but that potential also carries the potential for ecstasy. You  have to let one in to allow for the other.

golden-compass-astrology-tarot“Feelings” are also the main source of intuitive insight. If you shut down your feelings, you’ve shut down your radar. Whereas the more you attend to your feelings, the sharper your intuitive radar becomes. Emotional flux becomes a reliable guidepost for taking stock, finding gratitude, processing loss and finding direction.

The message today is to welcome feelings, and look for what they are there to tell you. By allowing them, you get direct access to the best possible compass you could ever hope to find— a spiritual compass. The needle might waver for a minute when the signal is especially strong, but it’s never completely off. Let it guide.

Do you find emotions a hindrance or strength?

Mystic Dreamer Tarot (Book & Cards)
by Heidi Darras

Everyday Tarot, 05/05/11: How to Wrap the World Around Your Fingers

the-world-tarot-card-morgan-greerSo much of the time, it’s very easy to look at what’s wrong exclusively. We worry. We obsess. We feel our flaws and inadequacies, even the most minor crowding out acknowledgment of all we’ve accomplished.  If ninety-nine things go wonderfully and one does not, we tend to focus exclusively on the one.

That makes the one thing, a misstep or poor choice or single, unkind word that gets singled out much more powerful than it’s due. Tarot has a suggestion, don’t you know?

Today’s Tarot is the World card, number XXI of the Majors and associated with Saturn, although CJ makes a good argument for switching this card to Capricorn and the Devil to Saturn instead. For me, though, it’s a non-issue. Every Capricorn has access to both the Devil and the World’s energy, because it’s just two sides of what Saturn can do. Same energy, but expresses in how you live it. The promise of the World is what makes up for the fears and restriction of the Devil. If you’re doing it right,  you master those chains of restriction with purpose.

The World is the culmination of the Fool’s Journey, synonymous with that part of the Hero’s Journey where you come back home to integrate and teach the knowledge you’ve gained. It’s sign of success. The symbols representing the fixed signs occupy the four corners. The path here is rooted in stability. The XXI reduces to a three, suggesting mastery here will bear fruit. The World is always very encouraging to see, because it is a card of accomplishment. All is right, exactly as it should be.  Celebration is in order.

CelebrateSo what if you don’t feel like celebrating? It’s good to remember our lives are not absolute, black and white dichotomies of good and evil, right and wrong, up and down. If our choices were always clear, we’d have no trouble with them. Instead, we live everyday in this linear time; how much of it is spent reviewing the past—not for clues to live better in the now, but to apportion blame and recrimination, even if but on yourself?

The World here is giving us a nudge to focus on that positive energy we’ve built, if we want it to grow. The hard times? Successfully navigating them is exactly what gives us the gifts that make being here, now, possible. As my husband is fond of saying (and I’m fond of cussing), “Builds character.”

Now is time to take stock of the character you’ve built and see what it’s accomplished. It’s fine to expect a lot from yourself—that’s a good idea! But do remember to feel good about what those struggles earned you. Getting exactly what you deserve can be a good thing. I hope so!

Is there something you should be giving yourself credit for?

Morgan Greer Tarot Deck and Book Set
by Morgan Greer

Everyday Tarot, 5/4/11: Feeling Disconnected / Inverted 2 of Cups

inverted-reversed-two-cups-tarot-morgan-greerI don’t call myself an astrologer, but I am a sky-watcher. That new moon? Hit my 10th house; all this Taurus stuff coming up is dancing around my the top of the my chart. So we’re talking public persona and reputation.

That’s why I watch the sky. It makes me laugh!

Today’s Tarot is the Two of Cups, reversed. The “Lord of Love” is associated with Venus in Cancer. It speaks to who you love (Venus), the union where you most feel at home (Cancer).

While romance is sometimes referenced, not always. Any kind of coming together, can be implied. But it’s generally a good paring. Twos talk of duality—we have the yin and the yang in equal measure. Inverted, I look for mixed feelings, a holding back, or some kind of disruption in an otherwise comfortable, harmonious union.

You can also see this card inverted when you’re feeling isolated—unloved or unwanted, foreign or inscrutable. Separate. I usually don’t see the Two of Cups for an out-and-out breakup—that’s more the Eight of Cups or Three of Swords venue. The inverted two of Cups shows up more with emotional distancing.

I understand. I’ve had shifts in partnerships, and no matter what the terms, transition are by their nature unsettling. I often feel out of sync with the world at large, and it becomes exaggerated under stress.  So I’m doing my best to be aware of my feelings and deal with them as they surface. I’m focusing on where I want to go, looking to connect to what and whom I love (Venus), people and pockets of energy that feel like “home” (Cancer).

Being aware of your feeling process helps you stay on top of the situation, and finding other outlets eases the sting when you’re feeling less connected. It helps you work your way back to feeling more comfortable.

Are you feeling connected?

Morgan Greer Tarot Deck and Book Set
by Morgan Greer

Mini-Meditation: Green Tree Path

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Breathe….breathe. Deep breath in….and out. In…and out.

Envision yourself, sitting on a bench in a  park, looking down a beautiful line of trees. Inhaling the fresh air deep into your belly, and smelling the freshly cut grass. Exhaling slowly out, feeling the solid earth beneath your feet.

You feel the life forces of the trees  surrounding you…they are green and strong and vibrant. The birds’ songs are soulful, and you catch a glimpse of wildlife scurrying just out of the corner of your eye. The energy around you feels never-ending, reaching up, up, up into the sky, out in every direct like and endless sea.

Allow your own presence to expand, merging with that of the trees and wildlife. Let your energy become lighter and finer and wider, melding into the ocean of all energy everywhere until all is one.

All those worries, all the frustrations that mattered a minute ago now seem far away and unimportant. You know, deep down, everything is as it should be. Everything is right. Feel rays of light swim down into your body from the energy sea, down into your heart, filling you with love and wonder and peace.

When you’re almost ready to return, take in one last, deep breath of light and see it shining all around you in a bubble, protecting and calming you, as you go about your day. You can recharge your light any time you like, calling upon light from the sea of energy to brighten and lighten your path.

Do you have any favorite mini-meditations?

Everyday Tarot, 5/03/11: Not Quite at Home

reversed-ten-pentacles-morgan-greer-tarotOver the last five years or so, my conception of who is my “family” has shifted significantly, albeit unconsciously. It still is in flux and probably always will be, truth be told.

I never planned to redefine “family” every other Christmas! More than anything, people coming and going from my life have forced me to redefine my tribe, lest I find myself seriously lacking on that front. This works pretty well, unless or until remaining family disowns you.

Today’s Tarot is the Inverted Ten of Pentacles, aka “The Lord of Wealth,” associated with Mercury in Virgo. Like all Tarot tens, we are simultaneously ending one cycle and beginning another. Often, this card heralds family celebrations, along with a sense of prosperity and community. It’s all about what makes you feel abundant and prosperous, centering on home and heath.

I talk sometimes about my biological relatives. They are Jehovah’s Witnesses and in case it’s not glaringly apparent—well, I am not. This makes me persona non grata at family functions. Oh well, you know? The break happened over a quarter century ago, so I’d be a mighty slow processor if I was still mourning it much. But that’s not to say it never tweaks me.

Instead, I turned to other sources for a sense of community. My husband, children and friends have all served at times, as well as a number of “online families.” In the rare event I actually feel at home, I mentally adopt those folks! This works pretty well, except when it doesn’t.

My seventh house can Saturn in Pisces can erase relationships as if they never existed. Square a 10th House moon, this process is generally painful and very often, public. For example, upon leaving the Witnesses, it was publicly announced I was being expelled “for conduct unbecoming a Christian.” (Translation: not claiming I still believed the doctrine.) On the rare occasions where it doesn’t go down that way, I’m terribly grateful. But however it goes down, it is and always will be difficult. That’s the nature of this beast, you know?

The inverted Ten of Pentacles suggests that love (Venus) can indeed be a practical (Virgo) matter. While those we recognize as family may not always wholeheartedly accept us as such, we can continue to welcome those who do, and focus on the elements of family and abundance still present in our daily lives. If you’ve distanced from your family for whatever reason, look for other kindred souls to take their place. Individual perception of family may not be more powerful or than blood ties, but it certainly can take the edge off. Get your dinner where you’re best fed.

Does your sense of who your family is change?

Morgan Greer Tarot Deck & Book
by Morgan Greer

Everyday Tarot, 5/2/11: Smashed Plates and the Reversed 2 of Pentacles

inverted-two-pentaclesI am a secret perfectionist, although I don’t consider myself a control freak. That sounds contradictory, but I’ve learned to aim my mega-Virgo “this is how it HAS to be” vibe at myself most often. I have no Cardinal  to speak of, so no drive to direct the entire band. I only need to stay in tune myself to remain content. And really, that’s more than enough.

Today’s Tarot is the reversed Two of Pentacles—the “Lord of Harmonious Change.” Har!  Didn’t take long for a theme to emerge, huh? No wonder she’s on her head! I’m leaking, not having felt all that harmonious lately, making changes I’ve needed to make. Associated with Jupiter (too much!) in Capricorn (responsibility), this card is all about juggling those competing needs and demands. It all depends on the juggler, doesn’t it?

I most often see this card when there is just a LOT going on. Sometimes the coins  juggled represent vital interests and there is are real needs being fulfilled, although not always. But what’s generally consistent, especially when this card comes up inverted, is that doing the juggling is HARD and there are worries you won’t be able to maintain indefinitely.

juggling-animalsThe question to ask is, “What’s important here?” You want to know if your efforts are still doing what you intended or if circumstances have changed. It’s also a heads-up to acknowledge all you are and have accomplished. Often, it’s also a compelling call to seek out support. Who feeds you? Who has the skills and interests and ability to help? How can your needs and interests align with others to make the tasks less demanding.

I always think in terms of personal energy—as in, it’s a finite resource as long as we walk about on this material plane. So to do the most, the best, to aim the highest, you have to look at how your energy is managed, magnifying the good. That means evaluating and reviewing regularly, as well associating yourself with like-minded others.  Don’t be afraid to let go of what’s not serving anybody or change the tasks you’re juggling. It stings as you let go, but the relief that follows salves the rawness. Life is dynamic. If we’re not, we’ll miss the mark.

How are you doing with your juggling act?

The Housewives Tarot
by Paul Kepple