02/03/14: Goodbye, Helplessness! / 9 of Swords

Nine of Swords

To me, the Nine of Swords always evokes those nights when you just cannot sleep, haunted by self-perpetuating thoughts of how there is no way out. And the worst part? Nobody to talk to, and knowing it’s your fault.

Er, ah. Not that I’m speaking from personal experience or anything.

This is what we’re advised to release—“A mindset, resentment, ideal or other situation you need to let go of  to achieve your desired outcome,” according to the Deck of 1000 Spreads.

Well, that’s much nicer than holding on to it. But if it were so damn easy, we wouldn’t be looking at those tied hands to begin with.

Listen: you are where you are. Simplistic maybe, but an accurate observation nonetheless. In our everyday, mundane life, time is liner, always crawling ahead. Take stock, separating out how much is reality of the situation versus how much is fear of where the situation may lead. Many get these conflated.

Question the “unthinkable” regardless (because a lot of the time, “unthinkable” is a euphemism for “I refuse to accept that”).

Realize guilt, isolation, and worry doesn’t help. Right? It just clouds the head. Accept inherent limitations while at the same time, look to reach beyond. This means seeking outside counsel if appropriate. It almost always includes forgiving yourself for being in the situation to begin with.

I’d say once you are familiar with where you are, shift gears to where you want to go, and then look for something, anything—however humble—that moves you a little bit closer. Taking even a small action will help you feel better.

Lather, rinse, repeat. That’s how you let go of the helpless feelings.

You feeling this?

Morgan-Greer Tarot Deck
by Bill Greer & Lloyd Morgan

Deck of 1000 Spreads
by Tierney Sadler

Shine Thy Light!